Uneasiness&&exhaustion.

The uneasiness from relationships,
The exhaustion from Bell Choir.

30 concerts in 2 weeks. One day long Detroit trip. Over $250 in expenses. One name: Bell Choir

I do love it though.

The uneasiness: What do you do when you really feel like you should break up with your boyfriend and then he tells you he loves you?

I've never said I love you. In fact, the man that I feel the most love for right now is my best friend Matt, not my boyfriend. Of course, this felling for Matt is totally agape. My feelings for Eric? I don't think we are really right for each other. In the beginning it was great and all, but now I am discovering things about him that irk me, and that our personalities are far different and I find myself becoming bored with him. But obviously, he holds me up on this pedestal and thinks I am everything, to him I am the world.

I can't date this boy who has no faith at all, who shows no hint of romanticism, who isn't chivalrous. Don't get me wrong, he's the most polite boyfriend I have ever had, and would do anything for me, and never even thinks about pushing my boundaries. Yet something just doesn't feel right.

Maybe I'm just freaking out, but I told him that I don't feel the same way about him and he treats me no differently. But is it right to stay with someone who feels so deeply devoted to you when you don't feel the same about them? Is it fair to them? Is his definition of love the same as mine? To me, love is all-sacrificing and giving, totally selfless and determined. I don't feel that way about him. Does he feel that about me, or does he believe love is the infatuation he has with me? I'm not quite sure, but either way, I feel like I am leading him down the wrong path even though I have been honest with him about my unrequited feelings.

What is there to do? I don't want to totally freak him out or break his heart by talking to him about this.