Bitterness?

well, I guess I have something that I should say for myself.

Here goes.

I am not bitter about Gavin Kuns.

Okay, I did it.

See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.
Hebrews 12:15

I read Bella's post about how he could have any girl he wanted, blah blah blah, and how it takes a LOT for someone to be able to truthfully say they don't want a relationship or anything new to deal with. I can't be mad at him. He's just telling the truth. I don't understand how tough it is to be a senior getting ready to leave all of my friends and attend college in a state that's 1000 miles away. He's just a boy who is trying to balance everything in life and finds it important to be honest to those who matter to him. I guess I have to accept that. It hurts, yes, but I have to take it for what it's worth. And I guess what it is worth is a lesson: I might not see the real meaning of something, but somehow, sometime, the reason why will be revealed later. I guess I could apply this for a lot of occurrences in my life. I don't want to be upset with Gavin. He is a great guy. I guess it's okay to be upset with the situation, but not with the cause of it. And yes, I've broken my share of hearts, I guess what goes around comes around. That's the beauty of God's plan for us, the whole 'I'm going to do something now, trust me, it's for your own good, and you will find out what it means later', it keeps us waiting for Him to reveal His motivations for what happens. There's other fish in the sea. Maybe God has bigger and better things in store, and this disappointment is just training me for what He will bring about next, and once that comes, I will appreciate it more.

That sounds about right.